I've been in a meh sort of mood recently. You know when you just CBAAAA, everythang sux, angst and hormones. Yeah. I'm putting it down to no sleep. For the past two weeks I've been going to sleep at around 4am and waking around 7am. That's three hours sleep. Then I sleep half the day and/or consume mucho caffeine. And le cycle continues. I'm dooooooomed.
And I'm also stressed. I have my AS levels (big stupid exams) in a few months and basically I've done fuck all regarding school work this year. So there's another aspect of life in which I'm doomed. I hate my subjects. I think I might drop out after this year. If I could get at least a pass in two (out of four), that would be okay...fuck it. I'm past the point of caring. I don't care if I end up as a prostitute or drug dealer. I really don't. I think the school system here is so stupid. You have to cram large amounts of information into your head during a short space of time, which you forget an hour after the exam. I don't think learning should be forced. I think it should be relaxed and stress-free. I learn so much more when I'm not thinking "have to know this, must know this, must memorize text book". *big sigh* It's so stuuuuupiddddd.
Sorry for the big emo rant but ya know, I'm 17. I'm filled with all sorts of hormones and chemicals and I'm sleep deprived, what do you expecttt?
Well...in other news, I double-dated it up last night! Me and Callum (obvs) and Stefanie and some guy. Dodgy. That's why she needed me to be there, but I didn't want to be a third-wheel, so I got my trusty sidekick to come too (...that would be Callum...). We went to see Remember Me, the new Robert Pattinson movie. I really liked him in this movie. Twilight makes him look like a crappy actor, but he's rly not. Cos I should know. He's quite dishy too (did I just say dishy?!). I already knew the ending because my friend spoilt it for me the first day it was out (pfft some friend), but it was a good movie. Some explicit steamy scenes. I don't recommend you to watch it whilst on a double-date. Stefanie's date was just like :|. I could feel that he wanted to die. It was really sad too. I'm ashamed to admit it, but I may have let a few tears loose...overall; good movie, awkward time.
In other other news, Callum wants me to go to this formal thing on Saturday night. That's what we call "proms". I really don't want to go but Callum really wants me to. IDK why. But I hate things like that. Girls seem to feel the need to wear orange fake-tan and dresses that just shout "RAPE ME". And the music is all stupid Cheryl Cole, Miley Cyrus, N-Dubz, etc. So I need your help. Should I go?!?!?!?!?!?! For C-dawg? Or should I REJECT him? Dundundunnn. What if he gets someone else to go with him...omg...no he wouldn't...but he is really hot...so he could...I think I should go to ensure no bitch steals ma man. I'm really over protective of him. If anyone even looks at him (man or women or animal) I immediately hug him or kiss him or strip or something. But really, I don't think he'd go with another gurl. I'm his only bitch. But anyway, WHAT SHOULD I DOOO? Should I go for the lolz and get drunk? Or should I stay in and blog? Dilema of the century!
Yeah I know ya'll don't give a fook but whateva :D
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Wow, sounds like you haven't been able to go to sleep. Don't worry, lately I haven't been getting much sleep and when i don't get enough sleep... I literally cry and be a messed up emo for the rest of the day y'know? Haha.
ReplyDeleteI hate exams, I hate school. But I consider myself lucky because some of my cousins in Philippines can't afford an education so I try and like school and try and do well.
I never liked Robert P, in twilight he just could not act along with Kristen Stewart made it worst. But twilight the story line is good but the actos fucked it up a bit. Nevertheless, I may watch that movie... Sounds okay.
I don't think you should go if your not comfortable about it.
HAHAHAHA we've been going through the same thing! Sleeping at 4AM, waking up too early, drinking coffee because we feel too sleepy to function =))
ReplyDeleteSummer term is starting for me too so the carefree days are over! It sucks to have school again -_- But meh. It's life.
HAHAHA at the double date. I hate it when I cry in movies with my boyfriends. He likes to tease me when the traitor tears start falling :)) Good thing I love him or I'll shove him doen the toilet or something to that effect =))
Go to the prom!! Flaunt your maaaaan :)) I'm guilty of that too, hugging/kissing/whatever-ing him when someone looks at him like she wants to get his attention or something. STOP RIGHT THERE LADIES, HE'S MIIINNEEEEE SEE THISS! =)) Well, girls will be girls :))
We only have two seasons here (rainy and summer). I only get two weeks vacation because I'm taking summer classes which is required for my college course :)
I also blame my hormones when everything is a mess and I screw up.:)
ReplyDeleteWell, I just hope you'll be better and that you'll be able to the do all the stuff you gotta finish. :D