Mehhhhhhhh going back to school suckssssssssssssss.

I have forgotten everything I learnt last year. I have gained so much weight that my uniform barely fits. >.<>

I know smoking is a dirty habit and I smell and I will die of lung cancer etc. but at times like these I couldn't imagine not being a smoker. Am starting to wonder why I came back to school at all. I don't really want to be here and I would probably be happier in full time work.  

I blame this short-ass random depressing post on hormones.

BLAHHHHH

SHIT

So I got AABC in my AS levels so I am rather pleased. :) I am dropping biology this year though because 1) IT SUCKS and 2) I cba. I'm not a sciency person. It requires too much memory and brainyness. Which I lack. I'm not going to have a sciency career so why waste my time on a sciency subject, eh eh eh?

MORE IMPORTANTLY, CALLUM. I AM SURE YOU ARE DYING TO KNOW. WHAT'S WITH THE CAPS IDK. He got A*AAB. WHAAAT. He didn't even revise that much. So he got about one billion university offers. Okay two. One here and one in England. I don't want to influence his decision and have him make a mistake because of me so I will say what I want to say to him here...I DON'T WANT YOU TO GO TO ENGLAND. :'(

Honestly I will be devastated. Perhaps for selfish reasons. But I'm just sayin'. I don't know what the hell I will do without him. Really. What the HELL will I DO. He did say we could still be together...but that would suck. I wouldn't actually get to SEE him and his cute little face. :( And he won't be able to come round to mine at 2am to give me a cuddle because I'm a hormonal little freak. :(

SO IDK GUYS. IDK. I want him to do what he wants...but at the same time I don't want him to go away.

AM I BEING A BITCH?


oh P.S. I know I said I'd blog more but haven't..I've been busy. OKAY. I needed to say that. Or type that. Because I'm being eaten alive by my selfish thoughts.